For much of my life, I dedicated myself to becoming successful, to being seen, heard, and respected in my profession. It was a pursuit I took seriously, learning from those I admired and observing those I did not. My journey to the top was not without its challenges, but through it all, I became headstrong and determined. Yet, in the last five years, I have been on a new journey—one that has required me to relearn my thinking and mindset. This journey is about humbling myself, learning to step back, and trusting in God's plan, even when it means not being in control.
As a single mom, I put myself through school while working full-time. My motivation was simple: to provide for my daughter and ensure she had the benefits and essentials she needed. It was a tough road, but I hoped that in doing so, I would also teach her the value of hard work and determination. Throughout this time, I was shaping myself into a leader, learning how to be effective, assertive, and strong. I learned from the leaders around me—some I admired, others I did not. I quickly understood who would succeed and who would fail, and I was determined to be among those who made it to the top.
In the last five years, my perspective has shifted. Life has taught me that being in control is not always necessary, and that sometimes, stepping back and allowing others to lead is the more courageous choice. This has been one of the hardest lessons I've had to learn. For someone who has always been assertive, always in control, and always planning the next move, learning to be still and let things unfold has been a struggle.
This process of humbling myself has not been easy. It has required me to relinquish the need to be in charge and to trust in God's plan for my life. There have been moments of frustration, moments when I've questioned whether I'm doing the right thing by stepping down or stepping back. But in those moments, I've also found peace in knowing that God is working in me, shaping me into the person He wants me to be.
Letting go of control is not something that comes naturally to me. My normal mindset is to always have my next step in motion, whether it's in my career, my personal life, or any other aspect of my existence. But I am learning that there is strength in stillness, and that sometimes, the most powerful thing we can do is to simply be where we are, accepting it and letting God do the rest.
This journey from pride to humility is ongoing, and it is far from easy. But I am learning that humility does not mean weakness, and that stepping back does not mean failure. Instead, it is an acknowledgment that I am not the one in control—that God is, and that His plans for me are far greater than anything I could ever imagine.
As I continue on this journey, I am reminded that humility is not about diminishing myself or my accomplishments. It is about recognizing that I am part of something much bigger, something that requires me to trust, to let go, and to be open to the lessons that life—and God—are teaching me. It is a difficult path, but it is one that I am committed to walking, one step at a time, with faith as my guide.
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